This year I registered for National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo) which goes from November first to November thirtieth. Thirty days to reach the goal of writing fifty-thousand words. About 1667/day or 11669/week with a couple days to breathe. Believe or not I found out about it through Facebook. Not from someone or an ad or anything like from the Flair application, haha, of all places! I am currently up to 7100 words. I was doing pretty good. Reached my goal of 2500 words per day for two days but I was all alone, no distractions. My thinking was that if I wrote 2500 words per day, Monday through Friday I could have my weekends free.
Come Wednesday, work in the morning so I have to find time to write in the afternoon or evening. Pick up Lily…I think she can smell when I am trying to concentrate. It is as if sugar is seeping out of my pores evaporating into the air and she can’t stay away from or stop talking to me. This sounds horrible, I know. I’m her mother I should want to talk with her and spend time with her but, hey, I’ve got needs! I helped her with her homework, snack then “honey, please go play in your room.” Argh! That was not reverse psychology, kiddo! I’ve just decided, of course, that the best time to write is obviously when she is not around (i.e. school or bedtime or those precious moments when grandpa comes to take her away for a time).
*sigh* So limit learned. It is also a little difficult to write and access my subconscious/inspiration when my husband is around. I think it is my feeling of love and obligation to connect. Proof of this was when I was at Starbucks the other day and music was playing, customers talking, bell on door ringing, expresso machine whooshing and frothing. All this noise and I happily was writing non-stop in my notebook. Craziness! So, yeah that’s when I realized I love my family too much and should not care about connecting with them…just kidding….if I want to write when they are around. Eh, I’ll get over it. My hubbie reminded me that is how it is. If you wanna work at home you have to manage everything from the physical, emotional, psychological, etc. to be successful.
I read that sudden fatigue is a sign that you are resisting changing habit and for me right now that is writing a certain amount of words per day. The other day I was writing got about halfway to my goal for the day and then I’m falling asleep in my seat. I take two hour nap but at least I went back to writing after that. It is a lot easier for me to put the tunnel glasses on when I’m alone and focus on writing. Well, life isn’t like that now is it? Besides I’m too much of a people person to be a hermit for more than a few days at a time anyway. I would get depressed. (I’ve been there)
I’m trying to keep my inner critic in check until it is rewrite time. There is a good time for your critic and a bad time. When you are trying for the first time to get your first draft of your first novel manuscript is one those times you must keep it at bay. It may stop me in my tracks. So I keep telling it that it will have it’s say all in good time right now I just have to get it out of my head.
It is a fantasy novel and though I had an idea at the beginning, I didn’t realize how many rules I had not already known! As I write they just roll out of me as if they had always been there–like duh! And then the villain is someone I didn’t expect either and I hope that my rewrite will keep it kind of a mystery as well. I’m finding the writing process of this adventure very fascinating.